Exhausted

I am tired. So tired.
Emotionally, physically, spiritually.

I am tired of the chase.
Trying to make my own niche
In a world extremely obsessed
With power, money and debauchery.

I am tired of trying
To prove that I’ve got something to prove
That I captain my own soul
And master my own fate.

I am tired of falling
Over and over again
After the same lust for more
That empties than satisfies.

I am tired of being deceived
By lies I made myself to believe
That confounds more than clarifies,
And can’t live without other lies.

I am tired of living for pleasure
As if it’s the only reason why
I live, exist and breathe
When I know full well there’s more.

I am tired of seeking for a drink
From wells that increases thirst
Than satiate the longing for love
And being loved in return.

I am tired of the loneliness
That haunts me when I’m alone
That steals from my hours of sleep
And slowly, from my sanity.

I need a breakthrough
And yes, Tom is right
Coz for it to come,
Something must break.

So God, I give you permission
Break whatever that is left unbroken
But please, take these pieces of what’s left
Of what was once I considered my heart.